THEN AND NOW
No matter the weather, every morning was bright
Because each day her vision was my very first sight.
Now every morning is cloudy and grey
Regrets are all I have to face the new day.
My sleep was blissful with her in my arms
Lying naked beside me with all of her charms.
Alone now I toss and turn, ever so lonely
This bed is a tomb now that it’s empty.
Our arms wrapped round just felt so right
To kiss and make love and hold on so tight.
Now my pillow is all that’s left to hold
No warmth from her body, only the cold.
Read the papers and have our orange juice
No tension, no stress, always so loose.
Now pain is the first thought, wanting to cry
Knowing she’s gone, but not knowing why.
Planning our day with each other in mind
No more kindred spirits would you ever find.
Now no reason is there to enjoy this day
Just getting through it is the only way.
So many things to share with my “sweet girl”.
My joy knew no bounds, my heart in a whirl.
Now no one to share even my grief
The wonder of together was all too brief.
Her beauty to admire and to love her smile
Her laughter and her love were so worthwhile.
Now only visions of what was hoped to be
A shared love that I will never again see.
We danced like two people becoming as one
Shared laughter and good times and had such fun.
Now memories are all I try to forget
They bring only sadness, sorrow, regret.
She taught me to roller-blade with the best
Pushing me hard with never enough rest.
How can I blade without thinking of her?
Regretting I’m not with the one I prefer.
Making love on the beach across the lake
So tender and sweet for each other’s sake.
Now the boat’s like the love – gone to another
From this enormous pain how will I recover?
She was the best thing that ever happened to me
My heart had grown cold and she set it free.
Now my heart aches as I thought it could not
Painful sorrow and hurt I thought I’d forgot.
When I was with her I felt such pride
To know that she was there by my side.
To have thought it would go on forever
That out of my life she’d be – no never!
My heart skipped a beat at the thought of her
So filled with hope, joy, love and wonder.
Now there’s nothing left but the empty ache
Of a love lost and the very soul she did take.
So many memories of wonderful days
Spent together in such special ways.
Now the only memories are oh so bad
Anger and frustration just make me sad.
Her building a fire and me cooking dinner
Giving her comfort made me a winner
To now know that these things were not enough
To make her love me in return is so tough.
Those great, fun days skiing at Silver Star
She challenged me to go ever so far
Now I wonder if I ever again ski
What’s the point when there’s only me.
How many lunches and dinners have we shared?
Always great conversations ‘bout things we cared.
Now no desire to eat out anymore
Hardly a reason to go out the door.
So many conversations over the phone
Honest opinions shared with each one.
Now I just wait for the phone to ring
To hear her sweet voice is the thing.
Giving my love without question
To be hurt? Not even a suggestion.
But giving my heart to the love of my life
Has brought so much pain, hurt and strife.
With her in my thoughts I knew my plan
Her warmth and affection made me a man.
She’s gone and took away my meaning
Lost without her is the way I’m leaning.
Every love song spoke of the way I feel
True love? Yes these feelings were real.
Now the hurting songs are much more true
They speak of sorrow, pain and being blue.
The future was bright, as together we’d be
No more lonely and sad, not with “you and me”
Now gone is my soul along with my heart
Dark clouds of despair now we’re apart.
Memories you created every single day
Of the things you did in your own special way
Now those memories will fade as time goes by
The most hurtful part is I’ll never know why.