Poem - Denise - On Valentine's Day

On Valentine’s Day, 2010

My vision for this Valentine’s Day cannot come true
The cabin in the woods, the roses, just me and you
There was wine and strawberries with cream
The kind of things of which you can only dream.

To kiss and to cuddle and make love all night
To show you my love in ways to delight.
My heart is bursting with feelings for you
You are my “once in a lifetime love”, it’s true.

I see you. My heart skips a beat.
No other woman could ever compete.
I’ve given you my heart on a silver platter
Nothing else is important in my life, no matter.

I can’t pick what I love the most about you
Because ever single thing about you is so true
Gorgeous. Smart. Sexy and fun.
Your radiance is like the proverbial sun.

You truly are the wind beneath my wings
With you my whole body literally sings.
I can’t wait to see you or talk to you every day
You make every minute so special in every way.

Thoughts of you consume all of my days
I love you so much, in so many ways.
Your beauty excites me beyond belief
You have stolen my heart, you wonderful thief.

I lay down at night, thinking of you
I wake the next day and the same is true
That you came into my life to love
Is the most wonderful gift from above.

That you met me and loved me for a little while
That thoughts of you and me make you smile.
“ILYB”, “ILYMB” and so much more
Texting and talking were what I adore.

Making love to you was what heaven’s about
That I could please you, my name to shout
“Wait! Wait” were words of music to my ears
Was I good enough? You calmed all my fears.
No woman has ever meant more to me
You are my reason for living, can’t you see?
For without you I am a broken man
To live all alone, don’t think that I can.

For you are what I’ve have longed for all my life
To hold you in my arms, and make you my wife.
Just to know that our days and nights could be together
There’s no amount of problems I could not weather

Without you loving me I don’t know what to do.
Am I just to be your friend? Please give me a clue
Is there any reason for me to cling to the hope
Or does that just make me even more of a dope?

So sorry that the words in my blogs hurt you
Honesty is the best policy? Not always true
I just wanted to be the man in your life
And to believe someday you’d be my wife.

Great memories are many, I hope you agree
I want to believe it’s not over for me.
Your mind seems made up. Is there no chance
That you and I can still find romance?

You’ve found another. You think he’s the one
If that’s true, then, yes I agree, I am done.
I know I have hurt you and deserve to lose
But I still believe I’m the right one to choose.

If you find true love with him it’s meant to be
Even though it means the greatest loss for me.
Into everyone’s life a great love must come
To show it’s possible, that’s what you’ve become.

If you find true love I will become a distant memory
But deep in my heart, I hope, if you ever think of me
I hope you remember all the good times we had
And that for a fleeting moment you’re glad.

No one will ever love you like I do.
No one will ever completely understand you.
No one will ever bring such laughter your way
No one will work harder to make your day
No one will ever help you all that he can
No one will want more to be your man.
No matter what, you will always be my “forever love”.

by TheEditor

Denise - when I'm together with her

When I'm together with her, all the while

All I can think about is her dazzling smile.

She makes me want to shout out loud

With her at my side I am so proud.

Her twinkling eyes and cute little bod

Men around her all give her the nod

How I got so lucky, God only knows

The love for me that she shows.

Together forever we long to be

But for now we'll just have to see

What the future may bring.

Will she end up wearing my ring?

Her life is complicated and full of strife

I just want for her to have a happy life

There are so many joys we bring to each other

It is not possible that we could want for another.

But time will tell if it is meant to be

She has tough choices to be set free

To be able to love me as I think she might

Tell me suffering alone is not our plight.

Our paths crossed out of sheer dumb luck

Not ending up together would surely suck.

Without her my heart is an empty shell

Not having her in my life is a living hell.

It's not even a day apart and I long for her

To put my arms around her I'd much prefer.

She's not alone in missing me

Sarah needs me as much as she.

Lines of prose should never be sad

Instead they should show I'm glad

But missing her brings on a heavy heart

The days and nights when we're apart

by TheEditor

At first sight

At first site of her your heart skips a beat

You just know that you have to meet

Long beautiful hair, angel eyes, a killer smile

Over broken glass to her you’d walk a mile

You sum up the courage to say hello

Terrified that she’s going to say no

But she says hello and gives you her name

You respond with some flirting. No shame

The first compliment is about her dancing

Trying hard not to show you want romancing

She says that she would love to dance with you

Your heart races at the thought of what to do

Will your dancing impress her enough?

Will she think that you have the right stuff?

Will there be more to this than just dance?

Will she want more? Is there a chance?

After a time you can’t stop thinking of her

Dreams of her loving you is what you prefer

Don’t go too fast! Don’t scare her away!

Take it slow and there might come a day

When things change and she wants more

Being your girlfriend is what you’d adore

You find love when you aren’t looking for it

Could she be the one whose love won’t quit?

Sure you’ve been hurt really badly before

But is this an excuse for not wanting more?

True love means being bringing down your walls

Don’t ignore the signs or be blind to the calls

Take a chance. You have nothing to lose.

This girl could be the one you should choose.

Keep your guard up and it will be your loss

Tell her. Be honest. Get your message across.

Life is short. No time to waste staying alone

It could be great, don’t fear the unknown

Just go for it. You know that you should

Be honest and clear. Don’t be misunderstood

Today forced isolation is our biggest threat

We can’t be together, can’t date, and yet

Having that special someone to share your life

Your lover. Your girlfriend. Maybe even your wife?

What life is all about, sharing good times and bad

Going it alone with no one will just make you sad

Having someone to love won’t solve everything

But into your life pure joy it will bring.

by TheEditor

Poem - Emily - Jewl

Into every child’s life must come a first pet
To care for, love and cherish and yet
There comes a day you know they’ll regret
A day that will make you so very upset.

For no matter how much you love them to death
They don’t live forever. They will take their last breath.
To a child this loss is a whole new feeling
That makes them cry and sends them reeling.

It’s so hard to make them understand it’s okay
To grieve their loss in their own special way.
To them it’s a pain they have never had
It makes them confused and so very sad.

We all go through it and we remember the pain
Our first thought is we’ll never have pets again.
But time heals all wounds and we soon recover
We learn that to go on we’ll soon have another.

Millions of pets go unwanted every day
Unloved and put down in such a cruel way
But you gave life to one so special to you
She knows that it was the right thing to do.

She wants you to remember all the good times you had
And not to dwell on her passing and be so sad.
Think of all the fun and joy she gave to you.
Smile when you remember her and don’t be blue.

To keep her alive in pain would be cruel
Think only good thoughts of your friend, Jewl.
In the days ahead you’ll miss her so bad
But remember she doesn’t want to make you sad.

She’s in a better place, free from pain
And she’ll want you to love another again.
More little joys like her will come your way
To fill your heart with joy. You’ll be okay.

Jewl will never forget her good friend, Emily
Who loved her and cared for her as much as could be
No better could she have been loved by anyone
Have only good thoughts, like the heart she won.

by TheEditor

Poem - Maybe a new beginning?

Never in my life have I been this sad
So many things are making me mad
These lines I write to get it all out
Venting my pain is what it’s about.

How did I get to this place in my life?
So grief stricken and filled with strife.
My fair share of mistakes I’ve certainly made
Too many wrong choices, and for those I have paid.

As I contemplate the final chapter of it all.
I begin to reflect on just how far the fall.
There were times when I thought to give in
Would signal what would be a cardinal sin.

I searched for some sign of a change coming
But no matter how I prayed there was nothing.
Each twist and turn brought only new pain
Why hang on when there was nothing to gain?

Just when I thought it was all for naught
Came the glimmer of hope I had sought
My cousin offered me a roof over my head
I thought for a moment I might not be dead.

A door had closed but another had opened wide
I might get my life back if I swallowed my pride
It gave me a chance to get out from the stress
Of having a life that had become such a mess.

In the midst of my sorrow Denise came to me
She so brightened my days and I began to see
That with this amazing woman here by my side
My life could be better, filled with such pride.

Her beautiful smile and twinkling eyes
That she loved me came as such a surprise
But along with the joy came also new doubt
Could we be together was what’s it’s about.

Mere words in a poem cannot be enough
To capture how, without her, it’s so rough
She gave me some hope, but only so brief
Thoughts of without her just brings me more grief.

Impossible it seems that we’ll ever see the day
When we can be together in that special way.
Her life, it’s complex, simply no room for me
More and more it looks like it’s not meant to be.

My life has no purpose if I can’t share her life.
She’s the first one for me that I’d want as a wife.
But it doesn’t look like there’s a place for me
To share hopes and dreams of what it could be.

Her smile warms my heart and fills me with joy
The way that she blushes and tries to be coy.
God, why bring me this vision? Is it a sign?
You know she can’t ever really be mine.

My father died in my arms that cursed day
My life changed forever in the worst way.
It was the start of a long painful fall
Now today, my back against the wall.

I have nothing to offer and can’t make it right
To lose the love of my life, a painful plight
Had she only come at a much brighter time
Our life together could have been sublime.

The dark shadows surround me and the sorrow grows
How I’ll ever get through this, God only knows
My dreams of happiness have all come too late
All alone and forever lonely. Is this my fate?

It’s said no love is worse than a love lost
But when you lose, the pain is the cost.
It tears at your soul that you can’t do a thing
To see the day when she wears your ring.

Life happens while you’re making other plans, it’s said
Sad that good fortune doesn’t come before you’re dead
If it weren’t for bad luck I’d have no luck at all
Desperate hope is pointless. Time to heed the call?

Let her go now before you hurt her even more
Just make sure that she knows it’s her you adore
That you will love her ‘til your dying day
That she is more special to you in every way.

The tears flow too easily as I write this prose
Sadness overwhelms me and I know it shows
Giving up is not something I’d ever prefer
But the odds, they are against me and her.

Choices she makes will change how it goes
Such a special lady, something everyone knows.
We’ve shared laughter and love, my sweet “Babygirl”
Know that deep down you set my soul in a whirl.

Neither of us knows what the future may hold
Without me in your life your love may grow cold.
If fate steps in to change your life plan
Know that I always want to be your man.

Today it appears to be impossible dreams
Living and loving, out of our reach it seems.
Your struggles to be free must come first
For me to be a factor would be the worst.

Only you know where your life it will go
But no matter what, there’s one thing to know
You brought such joy to a life so bleak
Eternity with you is what I seek.

Moments of weakness I wish you didn’t see
Strength and support is what you need from me.
You are strong willed, we know that is true
A pillar of strength is the right man for you.

Had we met at a different place and time
I have no doubt that you would be mine.
A love like ours is so hard to find
Always in my heart and in my mind.

The pain and the sorrow are too much to bear
For you I am longing, such much do I care
You are my once in a lifetime girl, I know
Overwhelming feelings of love do I show.

But the guilt of knowing I’m not right for you
At least not now, when you’ve so much to do
Sorrow and sadness, you’ve had your share
To just bring you more I do not dare.

What’s right here or wrong I have no clue
I only know my soul simply longs for you
To kiss you and hold you in my arms
To love you and share your many charms.

Those glorious moments we spent with each other
Tears well up when I sense they’ll not be another
My life is in ruins, little hope it will turn around
For too few moments of happiness now to be found.

You have been such a huge part of these recent days
You’ll never know how you thrilled in so many ways.
Although apart we did the best that we could
To keep the fires burning we just knew we should.

But texting and talking are just not enough
For people like us it’s simply too tough.
Our love is a start but we need the chance
To be together, have time for romance.

To laugh and cuddle and kiss and make love
Truly a great gift from the heavens above.
Your smile makes me crazy, of that be clear
My job is to bring only more smiles, my dear.

But when your soul is filled with such pain
Being “up” all the time you cannot sustain.
The reality of life rears its ugly head
And tears only flow like rain instead.

You need someone in your life as special as you
Settling for me is not the right thing to do.
I know you’ll be angry with me for this
But know there is no one more I will miss.

I believe in my heart that the love you have shown
Is more than one man could ever have known
Emotions ebb and flow like the tide
Sadness and sorrow I cannot hide.

Tears of joy turn to those of pain
A love like yours I’ll not find again
A different place and time we might have been
Like star-cross lovers, the best we’ve seen.

Wishing and hoping that dreams will come true
Is never enough, and not the right thing to do.
To get what you want needs decisions you take
If a life together is what you will make.

If those choices you make are not right for you
Then accept the alternative is what you must do
“Love is blind” only means you can’t see
That taking great risks will not set you free.

It has to be possible and not just a whim
Or that bright future will only grow dim.
In your life I’m not what you need right now
When being together we have no clue how.

Please don’t forget me in all your days ahead
Always remember, in my dreams, we were wed.
Wherever life’s journey in the future takes you
I hope you find another who loves you like I do.

Love you, forever and always.

Gary

by TheEditor

Poem - Denise - Meeting

She came into my life by pure accident
Time on MyYearbook I had never spent
But by a twist of fate I had go to the site
Something inside of me told me it’s right.

It’s said love comes along when you’re not looking
Maybe it’s just a matter of being more willing?
No matter. the point is she found me by chance
How it all got started was pure circumstance.

Don’t get me wrong, but it wasn’t right away
She was a friend of a friend I met that day
Who told me married was she,
So no thoughts of together we’d be.

Her friend cut me off quick, for no obvious reason
I guessed she was one of those friends for a season
But her friend stuck with me and tried to explain
That she had some “issues” and might come again.

The more we talked the more I liked her
Maybe it was going to be her that I prefer?
But I blew it with those fateful words, I knew
“Oh, no, I don’t want to sleep with you.”

No words have I ever uttered in my life
For me they are going to cause much strife
You see, some women can forgive and forget
Others, like her? Remember forever? You bet!

The hours flew by, texting and talking all day
I knew she was getting to me in her special way
But I’ve been hurt before so I held back a bit
That brick wall of sorrow I’d rather not hit.

Then came the day we would actually meet
Was this real? My excitement couldn’t be beat.
But nervous was I what she’d think of me
Would she still want me and together we’d be?

My heart raced. My pulse quickened. She was so near!
How do I act? What do I say? God, filled with such fear!
But the van door was open and I could see her there
My first thought was to just stop and just stare

She was a vision, more than I had ever dreamed
A first meeting is always scary, yet it seemed
In an instant we were comfortable with each other
In the same instant I knew I’d not want another

She has insisted on a hug and a kiss when we met
But I thought this was rushing a bit, and yet
Here was this incredible woman in front of me
How could I resist? I knew perfect it would be.

She hugged me tight and wouldn’t let go
Right then and there we both seemed to know
That this was the start of something great
To have met each other before it’s too late.

That day we spent was the best of my life
First time I thought again about taking a wife
We held hands from the start; it felt so right
I was almost speechless and knew she might

Actually be the girl of my dreams here right now
My mind was racing, just thinking about how
I would keep her forever and yet I knew
She’s still married and not a lot I can do

She has a life, a family, friends and a career
It wouldn’t matter how much I held her dear
All she got with me was someone who would care
To suggest much more than this I did not dare.
My caution told me that as the day went by
She could not be so perfect and I’d learn why
This was not my dream girl in that special way
She would do something or surely she’d say

What would for me be a sign to run
But all that happened is we had more fun
Every minute got better as the day wore on
Even God was smiling on us as the sun shone.

The day was hot and humid as Hades, beyond belief
We should have sought shelter to get some relief
But we stood in the blazing sun, my arms round her
Never ever letting her go was what I’d prefer.

To the bar we went, for some food I thought
But liquid nourishment was all that I got.
As we sipped and talked things got frisky
I knew we’d better leave or it would get risky.

My hands were under her skirt, sneaking up just a bit
If I went much further, the guys all watching, she’d have a fit
We knew where this was going; we had to get somewhere
Our lust was too obvious; they were beginning to stare.

The little park in Churchville was all I could think about
But would it be private e enough? I had more than one doubt.
Like silly teenagers we were dying to get at each other
It might have been a ten minute drive, but what a bother!

“Take it slow”, I said to myself, or afraid she’ll be
But I sensed she was as anxious as me
We went down by the river and the towels were laid
Which is exactly what I was thinking, I’m afraid

She said “off with my hat and throw away the gum”
“No problem”, said I “Look out here I come!”
What happened next you’ll have to ask her
Because staying private I know she’d prefer.

Let’s leave it that the “river” is special ‘til the day we die,
But in a million years you’ll not find out why.

Sometimes it seems like all we ever do is text
Both of us wondering what will come next
Neither one of us knows what it will take
To be together so I life we can make.

But hope springs eternal they say
So I pray that someday we will find a way.

To the love of my life, my BabyGirl.

by TheEditor

Poem - Denise - Birthday

Promise

Just like the dawn of a new day
Hope blossoms in a special way
Thoughts of what might be fill my heart
She’s special, that I knew from the start

Like so many people we met on the net
We kidded; we flirted; had fun and yet
She was with another so part of her life
Was being a mother and also a wife.

No danger here I thought
For love was what I sought
No she could never be more than a friend
My lonely heart, she would not mend

But there might be more here, we both knew
And as time went by it became more true
We joked and we laughed to the point of tears
The more we chatted, the less our fears

That fateful day when I first heard her voice
To meet her I knew I had no choice
Right from the start we acted like more
Her obvious charms I began to adore

No subject was off limits to her
Well, except one for me for sure
Not impossible but a struggle for me
Raw emotion springs from the big “C”

I’ll deal with it because it’s a part of her
That it didn’t exist we’d much prefer
But sometimes reality can really suck
Often a matter of pure dumb luck

She forgave me and said to move on
Her strength and conviction, it shone
She’s learned to treasure every single day
Not live for tomorrow but enjoy today

To some it sounds like I’m being a jerk
We’re so far apart how can it possibly work?
Often said, where there’s a will, there’s a way
We may well test that theory some future day

For now there’s only the unknown
But so far she has clearly shown
There is the promise of tomorrows
To ease the pain of our past sorrows

There may well be blips, stumbles and falters
But she’s worth the effort, this Denise Walters.
These thoughts I share on your special day
May your birthday be special in every way.

by TheEditor