Category Archives: The Women

Poem – Denise

Fallen Angel

Dark thoughts overwhelm me in every way
So hard to write without tears today
My heart is broken, my soul laid bare
Impossible to go on with no one to care.

You came into my life by pure chance
Was this to be my last shot at romance?
You were my once in a lifetime love
Such a wonderful gift from above.

My life was in ruins until you came along
To fill me with joy and in my heart put a song.
From the moment we met that fateful day
I knew you were special in every way.

We laughed; we texted, we talked every day
We made love in the most incredible way
It was the first time I understood “you complete me”
In every minute of every day I thought you would be.

Now my heart is broken, my soul filled with grief
Looks like this wonderful love will be so brief
Where once every single day you needed me
You have chosen without me you prefer to be.

No longer you need to hear the sound of my voice
Out of your life is now your very sad choice.
Cast aside like last week’s news
I never thought I’d be the one to lose.

You had such passion, such love to give
Your small imperfections I’d easily forgive.
For me you were a beacon of light
Together just felt so incredibly right.

But hoping and wishing that someday you will care
Clinging so desperately to this thought I do not dare
Oh, the hurt and the pain, I am so forlorn
Today I wish I had never been born.

Where once every day you filled my life with joy
Now without you there is nothing to enjoy
My very being has been wrapped up in you
Without you in my life I don’t know what to do.
You made me feel important, loved and wanted so bad
Even with Emily you made me feel like a Dad
It felt like “family”, something so important to me
I believed that some day, together we would be.

There has been so much that I will cherish forever
That I will ever forget you? No never!
The girls. What colour? Has anyone told you today? Oh, so true!
These were all things that I thought were special to you.

I am where I am because I fell so in love with you
Now I am lost and don’t know what to do.
You have made it clear that you are done with me.
That’s a dagger in my heart and it will surely kill me.

We have shared so much and I’ve been there for you
I’ve tried to help with what you needed to do
That made me feel so good and I hoped some day
I’d be with you and Emily to live together every day.

I know now you don’t love me, but I hope you can see
That without you I am struggling as bad as it can be.
Please think about what we’ve had again and again
Try to be patient and understand my incredible pain.

Don’t cast me aside in my hour of need
Please hear my call for help and heed.
To never feel my arms around you again
Brings tears of sadness and incredible pain.

For Sarah to be loved by someone else now
Tears at my heart and I don’t know how
I will ever get over you, I don’t think I can
I wanted so desperately to be your man.

Life without you is what I dread
I am so much better off dead.
Know that you are the most important thing in my life.
My biggest regret is that I can’t make you my wife.

I feel worthless, lonely and filled with doubt
To be in love is what life’s all about
With no one to care whether you live or die
To go on each day, you have no idea why.

I will never regret one minute that we have shared
It was so very amazing that for a while you cared.
I am left a broken man, so horribly sad and upset
But not one minute we shared will I ever regret.

You were my Angel, my love and my reason to be
Please never forget how important you are to me
Without your love I have nowhere to go
Yes, you’ll forget me, but always know

You were my one Babygirl and I will love you for all eternity.

The Women in My Life

This is a tough one for me, only because I revere women and my memory isn’t what it used to be, so I am terrified of leaving someone out. I doubt many of them will even remember me, so hopefully that means they won’t be offended. The ones who were special to me know who they are.

Poem – Denise – On Valentine’s Day

On Valentine’s Day, 2010

My vision for this Valentine’s Day cannot come true
The cabin in the woods, the roses, just me and you
There was wine and strawberries with cream
The kind of things of which you can only dream.

To kiss and to cuddle and make love all night
To show you my love in ways to delight.
My heart is bursting with feelings for you
You are my “once in a lifetime love”, it’s true.

I see you. My heart skips a beat.
No other woman could ever compete.
I’ve given you my heart on a silver platter
Nothing else is important in my life, no matter.

I can’t pick what I love the most about you
Because ever single thing about you is so true
Gorgeous. Smart. Sexy and fun.
Your radiance is like the proverbial sun.

You truly are the wind beneath my wings
With you my whole body literally sings.
I can’t wait to see you or talk to you every day
You make every minute so special in every way.

Thoughts of you consume all of my days
I love you so much, in so many ways.
Your beauty excites me beyond belief
You have stolen my heart, you wonderful thief.

I lay down at night, thinking of you
I wake the next day and the same is true
That you came into my life to love
Is the most wonderful gift from above.

That you met me and loved me for a little while
That thoughts of you and me make you smile.
“ILYB”, “ILYMB” and so much more
Texting and talking were what I adore.

Making love to you was what heaven’s about
That I could please you, my name to shout
“Wait! Wait” were words of music to my ears
Was I good enough? You calmed all my fears.
No woman has ever meant more to me
You are my reason for living, can’t you see?
For without you I am a broken man
To live all alone, don’t think that I can.

For you are what I’ve have longed for all my life
To hold you in my arms, and make you my wife.
Just to know that our days and nights could be together
There’s no amount of problems I could not weather

Without you loving me I don’t know what to do.
Am I just to be your friend? Please give me a clue
Is there any reason for me to cling to the hope
Or does that just make me even more of a dope?

So sorry that the words in my blogs hurt you
Honesty is the best policy? Not always true
I just wanted to be the man in your life
And to believe someday you’d be my wife.

Great memories are many, I hope you agree
I want to believe it’s not over for me.
Your mind seems made up. Is there no chance
That you and I can still find romance?

You’ve found another. You think he’s the one
If that’s true, then, yes I agree, I am done.
I know I have hurt you and deserve to lose
But I still believe I’m the right one to choose.

If you find true love with him it’s meant to be
Even though it means the greatest loss for me.
Into everyone’s life a great love must come
To show it’s possible, that’s what you’ve become.

If you find true love I will become a distant memory
But deep in my heart, I hope, if you ever think of me
I hope you remember all the good times we had
And that for a fleeting moment you’re glad.

No one will ever love you like I do.
No one will ever completely understand you.
No one will ever bring such laughter your way
No one will work harder to make your day
No one will ever help you all that he can
No one will want more to be your man.
No matter what, you will always be my “forever love”.

Poem – Maybe a new beginning?

Never in my life have I been this sad
So many things are making me mad
These lines I write to get it all out
Venting my pain is what it’s about.

How did I get to this place in my life?
So grief stricken and filled with strife.
My fair share of mistakes I’ve certainly made
Too many wrong choices, and for those I have paid.

As I contemplate the final chapter of it all.
I begin to reflect on just how far the fall.
There were times when I thought to give in
Would signal what would be a cardinal sin.

I searched for some sign of a change coming
But no matter how I prayed there was nothing.
Each twist and turn brought only new pain
Why hang on when there was nothing to gain?

Just when I thought it was all for naught
Came the glimmer of hope I had sought
My cousin offered me a roof over my head
I thought for a moment I might not be dead.

A door had closed but another had opened wide
I might get my life back if I swallowed my pride
It gave me a chance to get out from the stress
Of having a life that had become such a mess.

In the midst of my sorrow Denise came to me
She so brightened my days and I began to see
That with this amazing woman here by my side
My life could be better, filled with such pride.

Her beautiful smile and twinkling eyes
That she loved me came as such a surprise
But along with the joy came also new doubt
Could we be together was what’s it’s about.

Mere words in a poem cannot be enough
To capture how, without her, it’s so rough
She gave me some hope, but only so brief
Thoughts of without her just brings me more grief.

Impossible it seems that we’ll ever see the day
When we can be together in that special way.
Her life, it’s complex, simply no room for me
More and more it looks like it’s not meant to be.

My life has no purpose if I can’t share her life.
She’s the first one for me that I’d want as a wife.
But it doesn’t look like there’s a place for me
To share hopes and dreams of what it could be.

Her smile warms my heart and fills me with joy
The way that she blushes and tries to be coy.
God, why bring me this vision? Is it a sign?
You know she can’t ever really be mine.

My father died in my arms that cursed day
My life changed forever in the worst way.
It was the start of a long painful fall
Now today, my back against the wall.

I have nothing to offer and can’t make it right
To lose the love of my life, a painful plight
Had she only come at a much brighter time
Our life together could have been sublime.

The dark shadows surround me and the sorrow grows
How I’ll ever get through this, God only knows
My dreams of happiness have all come too late
All alone and forever lonely. Is this my fate?

It’s said no love is worse than a love lost
But when you lose, the pain is the cost.
It tears at your soul that you can’t do a thing
To see the day when she wears your ring.

Life happens while you’re making other plans, it’s said
Sad that good fortune doesn’t come before you’re dead
If it weren’t for bad luck I’d have no luck at all
Desperate hope is pointless. Time to heed the call?

Let her go now before you hurt her even more
Just make sure that she knows it’s her you adore
That you will love her ‘til your dying day
That she is more special to you in every way.

The tears flow too easily as I write this prose
Sadness overwhelms me and I know it shows
Giving up is not something I’d ever prefer
But the odds, they are against me and her.

Choices she makes will change how it goes
Such a special lady, something everyone knows.
We’ve shared laughter and love, my sweet “Babygirl”
Know that deep down you set my soul in a whirl.

Neither of us knows what the future may hold
Without me in your life your love may grow cold.
If fate steps in to change your life plan
Know that I always want to be your man.

Today it appears to be impossible dreams
Living and loving, out of our reach it seems.
Your struggles to be free must come first
For me to be a factor would be the worst.

Only you know where your life it will go
But no matter what, there’s one thing to know
You brought such joy to a life so bleak
Eternity with you is what I seek.

Moments of weakness I wish you didn’t see
Strength and support is what you need from me.
You are strong willed, we know that is true
A pillar of strength is the right man for you.

Had we met at a different place and time
I have no doubt that you would be mine.
A love like ours is so hard to find
Always in my heart and in my mind.

The pain and the sorrow are too much to bear
For you I am longing, such much do I care
You are my once in a lifetime girl, I know
Overwhelming feelings of love do I show.

But the guilt of knowing I’m not right for you
At least not now, when you’ve so much to do
Sorrow and sadness, you’ve had your share
To just bring you more I do not dare.

What’s right here or wrong I have no clue
I only know my soul simply longs for you
To kiss you and hold you in my arms
To love you and share your many charms.

Those glorious moments we spent with each other
Tears well up when I sense they’ll not be another
My life is in ruins, little hope it will turn around
For too few moments of happiness now to be found.

You have been such a huge part of these recent days
You’ll never know how you thrilled in so many ways.
Although apart we did the best that we could
To keep the fires burning we just knew we should.

But texting and talking are just not enough
For people like us it’s simply too tough.
Our love is a start but we need the chance
To be together, have time for romance.

To laugh and cuddle and kiss and make love
Truly a great gift from the heavens above.
Your smile makes me crazy, of that be clear
My job is to bring only more smiles, my dear.

But when your soul is filled with such pain
Being “up” all the time you cannot sustain.
The reality of life rears its ugly head
And tears only flow like rain instead.

You need someone in your life as special as you
Settling for me is not the right thing to do.
I know you’ll be angry with me for this
But know there is no one more I will miss.

I believe in my heart that the love you have shown
Is more than one man could ever have known
Emotions ebb and flow like the tide
Sadness and sorrow I cannot hide.

Tears of joy turn to those of pain
A love like yours I’ll not find again
A different place and time we might have been
Like star-cross lovers, the best we’ve seen.

Wishing and hoping that dreams will come true
Is never enough, and not the right thing to do.
To get what you want needs decisions you take
If a life together is what you will make.

If those choices you make are not right for you
Then accept the alternative is what you must do
“Love is blind” only means you can’t see
That taking great risks will not set you free.

It has to be possible and not just a whim
Or that bright future will only grow dim.
In your life I’m not what you need right now
When being together we have no clue how.

Please don’t forget me in all your days ahead
Always remember, in my dreams, we were wed.
Wherever life’s journey in the future takes you
I hope you find another who loves you like I do.

Love you, forever and always.


A ray of sunshine comes into my life

They say love comes along when you are not looking for it. Never more true than with my new love, DW. It’s a long story, but she was a friend of a friend who I had met through The more we talked (and you know how I hate to talk) the more we connected. She lives a couple of hours away, so we texted or we chatted on Windows Live or we talked on Skype, every day. She finally came to meet me a few weeks ago and it was incredible from the second we met. One day wasn’t nearly enough.

Poem – Denise – Meeting

She came into my life by pure accident
Time on MyYearbook I had never spent
But by a twist of fate I had go to the site
Something inside of me told me it’s right.

It’s said love comes along when you’re not looking
Maybe it’s just a matter of being more willing?
No matter. the point is she found me by chance
How it all got started was pure circumstance.

Don’t get me wrong, but it wasn’t right away
She was a friend of a friend I met that day
Who told me married was she,
So no thoughts of together we’d be.

Her friend cut me off quick, for no obvious reason
I guessed she was one of those friends for a season
But her friend stuck with me and tried to explain
That she had some “issues” and might come again.

The more we talked the more I liked her
Maybe it was going to be her that I prefer?
But I blew it with those fateful words, I knew
“Oh, no, I don’t want to sleep with you.”

No words have I ever uttered in my life
For me they are going to cause much strife
You see, some women can forgive and forget
Others, like her? Remember forever? You bet!

The hours flew by, texting and talking all day
I knew she was getting to me in her special way
But I’ve been hurt before so I held back a bit
That brick wall of sorrow I’d rather not hit.

Then came the day we would actually meet
Was this real? My excitement couldn’t be beat.
But nervous was I what she’d think of me
Would she still want me and together we’d be?

My heart raced. My pulse quickened. She was so near!
How do I act? What do I say? God, filled with such fear!
But the van door was open and I could see her there
My first thought was to just stop and just stare

She was a vision, more than I had ever dreamed
A first meeting is always scary, yet it seemed
In an instant we were comfortable with each other
In the same instant I knew I’d not want another

She has insisted on a hug and a kiss when we met
But I thought this was rushing a bit, and yet
Here was this incredible woman in front of me
How could I resist? I knew perfect it would be.

She hugged me tight and wouldn’t let go
Right then and there we both seemed to know
That this was the start of something great
To have met each other before it’s too late.

That day we spent was the best of my life
First time I thought again about taking a wife
We held hands from the start; it felt so right
I was almost speechless and knew she might

Actually be the girl of my dreams here right now
My mind was racing, just thinking about how
I would keep her forever and yet I knew
She’s still married and not a lot I can do

She has a life, a family, friends and a career
It wouldn’t matter how much I held her dear
All she got with me was someone who would care
To suggest much more than this I did not dare.
My caution told me that as the day went by
She could not be so perfect and I’d learn why
This was not my dream girl in that special way
She would do something or surely she’d say

What would for me be a sign to run
But all that happened is we had more fun
Every minute got better as the day wore on
Even God was smiling on us as the sun shone.

The day was hot and humid as Hades, beyond belief
We should have sought shelter to get some relief
But we stood in the blazing sun, my arms round her
Never ever letting her go was what I’d prefer.

To the bar we went, for some food I thought
But liquid nourishment was all that I got.
As we sipped and talked things got frisky
I knew we’d better leave or it would get risky.

My hands were under her skirt, sneaking up just a bit
If I went much further, the guys all watching, she’d have a fit
We knew where this was going; we had to get somewhere
Our lust was too obvious; they were beginning to stare.

The little park in Churchville was all I could think about
But would it be private e enough? I had more than one doubt.
Like silly teenagers we were dying to get at each other
It might have been a ten minute drive, but what a bother!

“Take it slow”, I said to myself, or afraid she’ll be
But I sensed she was as anxious as me
We went down by the river and the towels were laid
Which is exactly what I was thinking, I’m afraid

She said “off with my hat and throw away the gum”
“No problem”, said I “Look out here I come!”
What happened next you’ll have to ask her
Because staying private I know she’d prefer.

Let’s leave it that the “river” is special ‘til the day we die,
But in a million years you’ll not find out why.

Sometimes it seems like all we ever do is text
Both of us wondering what will come next
Neither one of us knows what it will take
To be together so I life we can make.

But hope springs eternal they say
So I pray that someday we will find a way.

To the love of my life, my BabyGirl.

Poem – Denise – Birthday


Just like the dawn of a new day
Hope blossoms in a special way
Thoughts of what might be fill my heart
She’s special, that I knew from the start

Like so many people we met on the net
We kidded; we flirted; had fun and yet
She was with another so part of her life
Was being a mother and also a wife.

No danger here I thought
For love was what I sought
No she could never be more than a friend
My lonely heart, she would not mend

But there might be more here, we both knew
And as time went by it became more true
We joked and we laughed to the point of tears
The more we chatted, the less our fears

That fateful day when I first heard her voice
To meet her I knew I had no choice
Right from the start we acted like more
Her obvious charms I began to adore

No subject was off limits to her
Well, except one for me for sure
Not impossible but a struggle for me
Raw emotion springs from the big “C”

I’ll deal with it because it’s a part of her
That it didn’t exist we’d much prefer
But sometimes reality can really suck
Often a matter of pure dumb luck

She forgave me and said to move on
Her strength and conviction, it shone
She’s learned to treasure every single day
Not live for tomorrow but enjoy today

To some it sounds like I’m being a jerk
We’re so far apart how can it possibly work?
Often said, where there’s a will, there’s a way
We may well test that theory some future day

For now there’s only the unknown
But so far she has clearly shown
There is the promise of tomorrows
To ease the pain of our past sorrows

There may well be blips, stumbles and falters
But she’s worth the effort, this Denise Walters.
These thoughts I share on your special day
May your birthday be special in every way.

Trouble even with a Panama girl

Is it alright to say “awoke” when you really never slept? Last night was one of the worst nights of my life and I awoke only to find we have no power, yet again. Can’t make coffee. No internet. My precious food in the freezers is in jeopardy. Certainly not what I need this morning!

So why the horrible night? Well, as I have spiraled down into my current depression, consumed by the thoughts of it all being over soon, the one glimmer of joy in my life was Magaly. Her affection, warmth, cuddling, making love and telling me she loved me kept me going each day, or least trying to hang in there.

It started Saturday, when she did not respond to my text messages about maybe taking her kids to the parade at night. It was my first Christmas in Panama and, although I certainly have no spirit of the season, even knowing that it was probably my last made me want to make the best of it and experience what Christmas was like in Panama.

She finally sent me a message saying that her kids were in David and that she had to work until six o’clock, so I replied, suggesting that we meet for pizza and then go to the parade. I had told her previously that I needed to have her take some pictures of the parade with her phone for my websites.

No response. Instead she just showed up at the house after work, and obviously in a very bad mood. When I asked why she hadn’t responded to my message, she said she had been using her sister’s phone and she had left the store, so Magaly didn’t get any message. When I asked where her phone was, she said her daughter had it in David. I reminded her how important I had said it was that I got pictures of the parade with her phone.

Now we had nothing to eat and she didn’t want to go to the parade. I asked her where the bread was that I had asked her to bring, but she had forgotten, so I couldn’t even have a sandwich. She said she didn’t want anything to eat and was just miserable. I asked her to please tell me what was wrong, but she insisted there was nothing wrong. We spent the evening in silence watching a movie, listening to all the music and singing coming from downtown. I really regretted not being there to enjoy it.

At eight o’clock she showered and went to bed without even a good night. When I crawled into bed she wanted nothing to do with our normal cuddling in each other’s arms, so I spent the night by myself, full of regret at missing the parade and still so utterly confused about why she was being so miserable to me.

I was up at seven the next morning and spent the next three hours puttering around the house, just trying to be quiet to let her sleep. I made pancakes for us, but she was still asleep, or pretending to be, so I ate alone. She finally got up at ten and headed into the shower. Not even a “good morning”. When I went into the bathroom to ask if she was ready for me to cook pancakes for her, she babbled something at me in Spanish, which I did not understand. She got all frustrated at me for not knowing what she said and all I got was a frustrated “oh, Gary!”.

We’ve managed to fumble along with the language pretty good all these months, and this was the first sign of any frustration that I didn’t understand her. I knew this was not a good sign.

When she sat down to eat I again asked her what was wrong and got the same answer – nothing. Although, yes, my language skills are lacking, I said I knew there was SOMETHING wrong and asked her to please tell me what was going on. Nothing she insisted and I could feel the anger welling up in me that she was being so obstinate.

The next few hours were spent with me working around the house and her cleaning my apartment. Not a word between us. We were to go to Stone and Barbie’s place at two o’clock for a Christmas party and, although I was not in any party mood I was hopeful she would brighten up and we could sort things out. I was happy to see her getting dressed and putting on her makeup. At least she was going to make an attempt.

As I put together our drinks to take and got ready to leave she informs me that she’s going to her house. Obviously upset I asked why? She just said she had to go. I explained how important it was for us to go and how awkward it would be for me when everyone asked where she was. Adrian was also bringing his new lady who spoke little English and I said it was important for Magaly to be there to talk with her. Nothing.

Now I got really upset and said I wouldn’t go without her as it would simply be too awkward and uncomfortable. She just said good-bye and left. It was a very low moment for me, realizing this was yet another thing she had spoiled for me.

I guess in defiance I decided I wasn’t going to regret one more thing, so I went. It was awkward, as I expected, because Barbie and everyone else at the party wanted to know where Magaly was. I made some lame excuse that she a function to attend with her family, but also said I suspected she wasn’t comfortable around so many English people. No one believed me, I’m sure.

My phone rang and it was Magaly asking me to let her back into the apartment, as she could not get a taxi. I asked her to come over to Stone and Barbie’s, but she refused, so I went back to open the door for her. I sort of lost it on her, angry that she was making such a mess of this. After some pleading she agreed to come over for a little while, I think mostly to help the other Panamanian girl out and not for me.

When we came back, again all I got was the silent treatment. She showered and went to bed without a word. I ended up on the couch, tossing and turning, fighting back tears, tossing and turning all night, overwhelmed with dark thoughts of how miserable I was. I fought to fall asleep and failed. I just wanted all this misery to end. My one tiny glimmer of hope had been dashed. It was over.

She woke me to say good-bye and I resisted the temptation to tell her to take all her clothes with her. Six in the morning is not a good time to start an argument. At this point I don’t know what to do. Her family is going to Panama City for Christmas and she can’t get the time off work, so we had planned to spend Christmas together, such as it is. Now it looks like I will be all alone, which is the last thing I need right now, but being alone is better than sitting in silence with someone you love and being treated like crap. Alone is the lesser of two evils.

Poem – Tawni

Happy ‘n Sad

You ask how I am, well, happy ‘n sad
A strange mix of sorrow and glad
Happy for the time that we shared
Sad in a way that so much I cared.

Happy to have held you in my arms
To have had a glimpse of your charms.
Sad that you’re now not around
To bring me the joy I only just found.

Happy we had the chance to meet
And for you to sweep me off my feet.
Sad that our time was all so brief
And that without you there’s grief.

Happy to have shared the laughter
To know clearly it’s you I’m after.
Sad to accept you’ll never be mine
To share with me roses and wine.

Happy to know that I can still learn
For someone like you I can still yearn.
Sad that it’s just not to be
Those joyful thoughts of “you and me”.

Happy to have known a girl like you
To dream of all that we could do.
Sad that I’ll not find another
Who’s just like you – why bother?

Happy to be moved to quiver and shake
Oh, the crazy fool you did make.
Sad that it’s gone almost before it came
Never be together – oh, what a shame.

Happy that I can still see your face
In everywhere you were in my place.
Sad that you’re not still there
For me to show how much I care.

Happy when I think of your smile
Over broken glass, I’d walk a mile.
Sad to know it doesn’t much matter
Thoughts of you are just idle chatter.

Happy to have felt the touch of your lips
Like from a fine wine, sharing a few sips.
Sad that we cannot share a kiss
To cradle your face, that I do miss.

Happy I’m not as cold as I thought
A woman to love I have not sought.
Sad that the one that I found
Is so far away and never around.
Happy to dream she might care for me
In a different place and time it just might be
Sad that we won’t get a chance
To live, love laugh and dance.

Happy to know the feel of your touch
To come to life and sense so much
Sad it was only for a few days
And that you could affect me in so many ways.

Happy to hear the sound of your voice
To think that together was really a choice.
Sad that for you it’s just not right
And you’ll live you life out of my sight.

Happy when my thoughts are of you
To even consider we might be two
Sad when I know it’s not to be
There’s little hope for a “you and me”.

Happy when the phone rings – it’s you!
To share the laughter as only we do.
Sad that it will not go on forever.
Will I ever forget you? No never!

Happy your sunshine was mine for a while
To make me whole again and make me smile.
Sad that love lost is better than none
No matter what, your heart I’d not won.

Happy to know that for you I do write
Thoughts that come in the depths of the night
Sad that my dreams of you
Are no more than that, whatever I do.

Happy to think you’ll always make time
For me to share my thoughts in rhyme.
Sad to think you might want me to quit
That you make me stop will hurt quite a bit.
Happy that you are still in my life
Thinking I’d lost you would cut like a knife.
Sad that we never gave it a chance
To see if there could have been romance.

Happy that you sound like you’re doing so well.
But if you are truly happy I cannot tell.
You’re focused on a career that’s important to you
But sad that it’s costing you a love so true.

Happy that the strong girl is earning her dreams
That nothing will stand in the way, it seems.
Sad that the soft little girl who lives inside
Came out for such a brief time, but she tried.

Happy that she knows I’ll always care
Wherever life takes her, no matter where.
Sad that she is now so far away
And that forever she could not stay.

Happy in hoping our paths may again cross
Not to dance and laugh would be such a loss
Sad that her path may take her away forever
Not get to blade in Vancouver, maybe never?

Happy to believe it will happen some day
And that somehow we’ll find a way
Happy to think she’ll come back in my life
And I’ll forever dream of her being my, ah, friend.



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