The CNE
August 21st, opening day of the CNE, the "EX" as it's known. I questioned if it was a good idea to go on this day as admission was only $1.75 instead of the usual $15, so I figured it might be a zoo. Unfortunately, I was right.
Poem - Denise - Meeting
She came into my life by pure accident
Time on MyYearbook I had never spent
But by a twist of fate I had go to the site
Something inside of me told me it’s right.
It’s said love comes along when you’re not looking
Maybe it’s just a matter of being more willing?
No matter. the point is she found me by chance
How it all got started was pure circumstance.
Don’t get me wrong, but it wasn’t right away
She was a friend of a friend I met that day
Who told me married was she,
So no thoughts of together we’d be.
Her friend cut me off quick, for no obvious reason
I guessed she was one of those friends for a season
But her friend stuck with me and tried to explain
That she had some “issues” and might come again.
The more we talked the more I liked her
Maybe it was going to be her that I prefer?
But I blew it with those fateful words, I knew
“Oh, no, I don’t want to sleep with you.”
No words have I ever uttered in my life
For me they are going to cause much strife
You see, some women can forgive and forget
Others, like her? Remember forever? You bet!
The hours flew by, texting and talking all day
I knew she was getting to me in her special way
But I’ve been hurt before so I held back a bit
That brick wall of sorrow I’d rather not hit.
Then came the day we would actually meet
Was this real? My excitement couldn’t be beat.
But nervous was I what she’d think of me
Would she still want me and together we’d be?
My heart raced. My pulse quickened. She was so near!
How do I act? What do I say? God, filled with such fear!
But the van door was open and I could see her there
My first thought was to just stop and just stare
She was a vision, more than I had ever dreamed
A first meeting is always scary, yet it seemed
In an instant we were comfortable with each other
In the same instant I knew I’d not want another
She has insisted on a hug and a kiss when we met
But I thought this was rushing a bit, and yet
Here was this incredible woman in front of me
How could I resist? I knew perfect it would be.
She hugged me tight and wouldn’t let go
Right then and there we both seemed to know
That this was the start of something great
To have met each other before it’s too late.
That day we spent was the best of my life
First time I thought again about taking a wife
We held hands from the start; it felt so right
I was almost speechless and knew she might
Actually be the girl of my dreams here right now
My mind was racing, just thinking about how
I would keep her forever and yet I knew
She’s still married and not a lot I can do
She has a life, a family, friends and a career
It wouldn’t matter how much I held her dear
All she got with me was someone who would care
To suggest much more than this I did not dare.
My caution told me that as the day went by
She could not be so perfect and I’d learn why
This was not my dream girl in that special way
She would do something or surely she’d say
What would for me be a sign to run
But all that happened is we had more fun
Every minute got better as the day wore on
Even God was smiling on us as the sun shone.
The day was hot and humid as Hades, beyond belief
We should have sought shelter to get some relief
But we stood in the blazing sun, my arms round her
Never ever letting her go was what I’d prefer.
To the bar we went, for some food I thought
But liquid nourishment was all that I got.
As we sipped and talked things got frisky
I knew we’d better leave or it would get risky.
My hands were under her skirt, sneaking up just a bit
If I went much further, the guys all watching, she’d have a fit
We knew where this was going; we had to get somewhere
Our lust was too obvious; they were beginning to stare.
The little park in Churchville was all I could think about
But would it be private e enough? I had more than one doubt.
Like silly teenagers we were dying to get at each other
It might have been a ten minute drive, but what a bother!
“Take it slow”, I said to myself, or afraid she’ll be
But I sensed she was as anxious as me
We went down by the river and the towels were laid
Which is exactly what I was thinking, I’m afraid
She said “off with my hat and throw away the gum”
“No problem”, said I “Look out here I come!”
What happened next you’ll have to ask her
Because staying private I know she’d prefer.
Let’s leave it that the “river” is special ‘til the day we die,
But in a million years you’ll not find out why.
Sometimes it seems like all we ever do is text
Both of us wondering what will come next
Neither one of us knows what it will take
To be together so I life we can make.
But hope springs eternal they say
So I pray that someday we will find a way.
To the love of my life, my BabyGirl.
Poem - Denise - Birthday
Promise
Just like the dawn of a new day
Hope blossoms in a special way
Thoughts of what might be fill my heart
She’s special, that I knew from the start
Like so many people we met on the net
We kidded; we flirted; had fun and yet
She was with another so part of her life
Was being a mother and also a wife.
No danger here I thought
For love was what I sought
No she could never be more than a friend
My lonely heart, she would not mend
But there might be more here, we both knew
And as time went by it became more true
We joked and we laughed to the point of tears
The more we chatted, the less our fears
That fateful day when I first heard her voice
To meet her I knew I had no choice
Right from the start we acted like more
Her obvious charms I began to adore
No subject was off limits to her
Well, except one for me for sure
Not impossible but a struggle for me
Raw emotion springs from the big “C”
I’ll deal with it because it’s a part of her
That it didn’t exist we’d much prefer
But sometimes reality can really suck
Often a matter of pure dumb luck
She forgave me and said to move on
Her strength and conviction, it shone
She’s learned to treasure every single day
Not live for tomorrow but enjoy today
To some it sounds like I’m being a jerk
We’re so far apart how can it possibly work?
Often said, where there’s a will, there’s a way
We may well test that theory some future day
For now there’s only the unknown
But so far she has clearly shown
There is the promise of tomorrows
To ease the pain of our past sorrows
There may well be blips, stumbles and falters
But she’s worth the effort, this Denise Walters.
These thoughts I share on your special day
May your birthday be special in every way.