Poem - Denise - On Valentine's Day
On Valentine’s Day, 2010
My vision for this Valentine’s Day cannot come true
The cabin in the woods, the roses, just me and you
There was wine and strawberries with cream
The kind of things of which you can only dream.
To kiss and to cuddle and make love all night
To show you my love in ways to delight.
My heart is bursting with feelings for you
You are my “once in a lifetime love”, it’s true.
I see you. My heart skips a beat.
No other woman could ever compete.
I’ve given you my heart on a silver platter
Nothing else is important in my life, no matter.
I can’t pick what I love the most about you
Because ever single thing about you is so true
Gorgeous. Smart. Sexy and fun.
Your radiance is like the proverbial sun.
You truly are the wind beneath my wings
With you my whole body literally sings.
I can’t wait to see you or talk to you every day
You make every minute so special in every way.
Thoughts of you consume all of my days
I love you so much, in so many ways.
Your beauty excites me beyond belief
You have stolen my heart, you wonderful thief.
I lay down at night, thinking of you
I wake the next day and the same is true
That you came into my life to love
Is the most wonderful gift from above.
That you met me and loved me for a little while
That thoughts of you and me make you smile.
“ILYB”, “ILYMB” and so much more
Texting and talking were what I adore.
Making love to you was what heaven’s about
That I could please you, my name to shout
“Wait! Wait” were words of music to my ears
Was I good enough? You calmed all my fears.
No woman has ever meant more to me
You are my reason for living, can’t you see?
For without you I am a broken man
To live all alone, don’t think that I can.
For you are what I’ve have longed for all my life
To hold you in my arms, and make you my wife.
Just to know that our days and nights could be together
There’s no amount of problems I could not weather
Without you loving me I don’t know what to do.
Am I just to be your friend? Please give me a clue
Is there any reason for me to cling to the hope
Or does that just make me even more of a dope?
So sorry that the words in my blogs hurt you
Honesty is the best policy? Not always true
I just wanted to be the man in your life
And to believe someday you’d be my wife.
Great memories are many, I hope you agree
I want to believe it’s not over for me.
Your mind seems made up. Is there no chance
That you and I can still find romance?
You’ve found another. You think he’s the one
If that’s true, then, yes I agree, I am done.
I know I have hurt you and deserve to lose
But I still believe I’m the right one to choose.
If you find true love with him it’s meant to be
Even though it means the greatest loss for me.
Into everyone’s life a great love must come
To show it’s possible, that’s what you’ve become.
If you find true love I will become a distant memory
But deep in my heart, I hope, if you ever think of me
I hope you remember all the good times we had
And that for a fleeting moment you’re glad.
No one will ever love you like I do.
No one will ever completely understand you.
No one will ever bring such laughter your way
No one will work harder to make your day
No one will ever help you all that he can
No one will want more to be your man.
No matter what, you will always be my “forever love”.
Denise - when I'm together with her
When I'm together with her, all the while
All I can think about is her dazzling smile.
She makes me want to shout out loud
With her at my side I am so proud.
Her twinkling eyes and cute little bod
Men around her all give her the nod
How I got so lucky, God only knows
The love for me that she shows.
Together forever we long to be
But for now we'll just have to see
What the future may bring.
Will she end up wearing my ring?
Her life is complicated and full of strife
I just want for her to have a happy life
There are so many joys we bring to each other
It is not possible that we could want for another.
But time will tell if it is meant to be
She has tough choices to be set free
To be able to love me as I think she might
Tell me suffering alone is not our plight.
Our paths crossed out of sheer dumb luck
Not ending up together would surely suck.
Without her my heart is an empty shell
Not having her in my life is a living hell.
It's not even a day apart and I long for her
To put my arms around her I'd much prefer.
She's not alone in missing me
Sarah needs me as much as she.
Lines of prose should never be sad
Instead they should show I'm glad
But missing her brings on a heavy heart
The days and nights when we're apart
At first sight
At first site of her your heart skips a beat
You just know that you have to meet
Long beautiful hair, angel eyes, a killer smile
Over broken glass to her you’d walk a mile
You sum up the courage to say hello
Terrified that she’s going to say no
But she says hello and gives you her name
You respond with some flirting. No shame
The first compliment is about her dancing
Trying hard not to show you want romancing
She says that she would love to dance with you
Your heart races at the thought of what to do
Will your dancing impress her enough?
Will she think that you have the right stuff?
Will there be more to this than just dance?
Will she want more? Is there a chance?
After a time you can’t stop thinking of her
Dreams of her loving you is what you prefer
Don’t go too fast! Don’t scare her away!
Take it slow and there might come a day
When things change and she wants more
Being your girlfriend is what you’d adore
You find love when you aren’t looking for it
Could she be the one whose love won’t quit?
Sure you’ve been hurt really badly before
But is this an excuse for not wanting more?
True love means being bringing down your walls
Don’t ignore the signs or be blind to the calls
Take a chance. You have nothing to lose.
This girl could be the one you should choose.
Keep your guard up and it will be your loss
Tell her. Be honest. Get your message across.
Life is short. No time to waste staying alone
It could be great, don’t fear the unknown
Just go for it. You know that you should
Be honest and clear. Don’t be misunderstood
Today forced isolation is our biggest threat
We can’t be together, can’t date, and yet
Having that special someone to share your life
Your lover. Your girlfriend. Maybe even your wife?
What life is all about, sharing good times and bad
Going it alone with no one will just make you sad
Having someone to love won’t solve everything
But into your life pure joy it will bring.
Poem - Emily - Jewl
Into every child’s life must come a first pet
To care for, love and cherish and yet
There comes a day you know they’ll regret
A day that will make you so very upset.
For no matter how much you love them to death
They don’t live forever. They will take their last breath.
To a child this loss is a whole new feeling
That makes them cry and sends them reeling.
It’s so hard to make them understand it’s okay
To grieve their loss in their own special way.
To them it’s a pain they have never had
It makes them confused and so very sad.
We all go through it and we remember the pain
Our first thought is we’ll never have pets again.
But time heals all wounds and we soon recover
We learn that to go on we’ll soon have another.
Millions of pets go unwanted every day
Unloved and put down in such a cruel way
But you gave life to one so special to you
She knows that it was the right thing to do.
She wants you to remember all the good times you had
And not to dwell on her passing and be so sad.
Think of all the fun and joy she gave to you.
Smile when you remember her and don’t be blue.
To keep her alive in pain would be cruel
Think only good thoughts of your friend, Jewl.
In the days ahead you’ll miss her so bad
But remember she doesn’t want to make you sad.
She’s in a better place, free from pain
And she’ll want you to love another again.
More little joys like her will come your way
To fill your heart with joy. You’ll be okay.
Jewl will never forget her good friend, Emily
Who loved her and cared for her as much as could be
No better could she have been loved by anyone
Have only good thoughts, like the heart she won.
Poem - Maybe a new beginning?
Never in my life have I been this sad
So many things are making me mad
These lines I write to get it all out
Venting my pain is what it’s about.
How did I get to this place in my life?
So grief stricken and filled with strife.
My fair share of mistakes I’ve certainly made
Too many wrong choices, and for those I have paid.
As I contemplate the final chapter of it all.
I begin to reflect on just how far the fall.
There were times when I thought to give in
Would signal what would be a cardinal sin.
I searched for some sign of a change coming
But no matter how I prayed there was nothing.
Each twist and turn brought only new pain
Why hang on when there was nothing to gain?
Just when I thought it was all for naught
Came the glimmer of hope I had sought
My cousin offered me a roof over my head
I thought for a moment I might not be dead.
A door had closed but another had opened wide
I might get my life back if I swallowed my pride
It gave me a chance to get out from the stress
Of having a life that had become such a mess.
In the midst of my sorrow Denise came to me
She so brightened my days and I began to see
That with this amazing woman here by my side
My life could be better, filled with such pride.
Her beautiful smile and twinkling eyes
That she loved me came as such a surprise
But along with the joy came also new doubt
Could we be together was what’s it’s about.
Mere words in a poem cannot be enough
To capture how, without her, it’s so rough
She gave me some hope, but only so brief
Thoughts of without her just brings me more grief.
Impossible it seems that we’ll ever see the day
When we can be together in that special way.
Her life, it’s complex, simply no room for me
More and more it looks like it’s not meant to be.
My life has no purpose if I can’t share her life.
She’s the first one for me that I’d want as a wife.
But it doesn’t look like there’s a place for me
To share hopes and dreams of what it could be.
Her smile warms my heart and fills me with joy
The way that she blushes and tries to be coy.
God, why bring me this vision? Is it a sign?
You know she can’t ever really be mine.
My father died in my arms that cursed day
My life changed forever in the worst way.
It was the start of a long painful fall
Now today, my back against the wall.
I have nothing to offer and can’t make it right
To lose the love of my life, a painful plight
Had she only come at a much brighter time
Our life together could have been sublime.
The dark shadows surround me and the sorrow grows
How I’ll ever get through this, God only knows
My dreams of happiness have all come too late
All alone and forever lonely. Is this my fate?
It’s said no love is worse than a love lost
But when you lose, the pain is the cost.
It tears at your soul that you can’t do a thing
To see the day when she wears your ring.
Life happens while you’re making other plans, it’s said
Sad that good fortune doesn’t come before you’re dead
If it weren’t for bad luck I’d have no luck at all
Desperate hope is pointless. Time to heed the call?
Let her go now before you hurt her even more
Just make sure that she knows it’s her you adore
That you will love her ‘til your dying day
That she is more special to you in every way.
The tears flow too easily as I write this prose
Sadness overwhelms me and I know it shows
Giving up is not something I’d ever prefer
But the odds, they are against me and her.
Choices she makes will change how it goes
Such a special lady, something everyone knows.
We’ve shared laughter and love, my sweet “Babygirl”
Know that deep down you set my soul in a whirl.
Neither of us knows what the future may hold
Without me in your life your love may grow cold.
If fate steps in to change your life plan
Know that I always want to be your man.
Today it appears to be impossible dreams
Living and loving, out of our reach it seems.
Your struggles to be free must come first
For me to be a factor would be the worst.
Only you know where your life it will go
But no matter what, there’s one thing to know
You brought such joy to a life so bleak
Eternity with you is what I seek.
Moments of weakness I wish you didn’t see
Strength and support is what you need from me.
You are strong willed, we know that is true
A pillar of strength is the right man for you.
Had we met at a different place and time
I have no doubt that you would be mine.
A love like ours is so hard to find
Always in my heart and in my mind.
The pain and the sorrow are too much to bear
For you I am longing, such much do I care
You are my once in a lifetime girl, I know
Overwhelming feelings of love do I show.
But the guilt of knowing I’m not right for you
At least not now, when you’ve so much to do
Sorrow and sadness, you’ve had your share
To just bring you more I do not dare.
What’s right here or wrong I have no clue
I only know my soul simply longs for you
To kiss you and hold you in my arms
To love you and share your many charms.
Those glorious moments we spent with each other
Tears well up when I sense they’ll not be another
My life is in ruins, little hope it will turn around
For too few moments of happiness now to be found.
You have been such a huge part of these recent days
You’ll never know how you thrilled in so many ways.
Although apart we did the best that we could
To keep the fires burning we just knew we should.
But texting and talking are just not enough
For people like us it’s simply too tough.
Our love is a start but we need the chance
To be together, have time for romance.
To laugh and cuddle and kiss and make love
Truly a great gift from the heavens above.
Your smile makes me crazy, of that be clear
My job is to bring only more smiles, my dear.
But when your soul is filled with such pain
Being “up” all the time you cannot sustain.
The reality of life rears its ugly head
And tears only flow like rain instead.
You need someone in your life as special as you
Settling for me is not the right thing to do.
I know you’ll be angry with me for this
But know there is no one more I will miss.
I believe in my heart that the love you have shown
Is more than one man could ever have known
Emotions ebb and flow like the tide
Sadness and sorrow I cannot hide.
Tears of joy turn to those of pain
A love like yours I’ll not find again
A different place and time we might have been
Like star-cross lovers, the best we’ve seen.
Wishing and hoping that dreams will come true
Is never enough, and not the right thing to do.
To get what you want needs decisions you take
If a life together is what you will make.
If those choices you make are not right for you
Then accept the alternative is what you must do
“Love is blind” only means you can’t see
That taking great risks will not set you free.
It has to be possible and not just a whim
Or that bright future will only grow dim.
In your life I’m not what you need right now
When being together we have no clue how.
Please don’t forget me in all your days ahead
Always remember, in my dreams, we were wed.
Wherever life’s journey in the future takes you
I hope you find another who loves you like I do.
Love you, forever and always.
Gary
Poem - Denise - Meeting
She came into my life by pure accident
Time on MyYearbook I had never spent
But by a twist of fate I had go to the site
Something inside of me told me it’s right.
It’s said love comes along when you’re not looking
Maybe it’s just a matter of being more willing?
No matter. the point is she found me by chance
How it all got started was pure circumstance.
Don’t get me wrong, but it wasn’t right away
She was a friend of a friend I met that day
Who told me married was she,
So no thoughts of together we’d be.
Her friend cut me off quick, for no obvious reason
I guessed she was one of those friends for a season
But her friend stuck with me and tried to explain
That she had some “issues” and might come again.
The more we talked the more I liked her
Maybe it was going to be her that I prefer?
But I blew it with those fateful words, I knew
“Oh, no, I don’t want to sleep with you.”
No words have I ever uttered in my life
For me they are going to cause much strife
You see, some women can forgive and forget
Others, like her? Remember forever? You bet!
The hours flew by, texting and talking all day
I knew she was getting to me in her special way
But I’ve been hurt before so I held back a bit
That brick wall of sorrow I’d rather not hit.
Then came the day we would actually meet
Was this real? My excitement couldn’t be beat.
But nervous was I what she’d think of me
Would she still want me and together we’d be?
My heart raced. My pulse quickened. She was so near!
How do I act? What do I say? God, filled with such fear!
But the van door was open and I could see her there
My first thought was to just stop and just stare
She was a vision, more than I had ever dreamed
A first meeting is always scary, yet it seemed
In an instant we were comfortable with each other
In the same instant I knew I’d not want another
She has insisted on a hug and a kiss when we met
But I thought this was rushing a bit, and yet
Here was this incredible woman in front of me
How could I resist? I knew perfect it would be.
She hugged me tight and wouldn’t let go
Right then and there we both seemed to know
That this was the start of something great
To have met each other before it’s too late.
That day we spent was the best of my life
First time I thought again about taking a wife
We held hands from the start; it felt so right
I was almost speechless and knew she might
Actually be the girl of my dreams here right now
My mind was racing, just thinking about how
I would keep her forever and yet I knew
She’s still married and not a lot I can do
She has a life, a family, friends and a career
It wouldn’t matter how much I held her dear
All she got with me was someone who would care
To suggest much more than this I did not dare.
My caution told me that as the day went by
She could not be so perfect and I’d learn why
This was not my dream girl in that special way
She would do something or surely she’d say
What would for me be a sign to run
But all that happened is we had more fun
Every minute got better as the day wore on
Even God was smiling on us as the sun shone.
The day was hot and humid as Hades, beyond belief
We should have sought shelter to get some relief
But we stood in the blazing sun, my arms round her
Never ever letting her go was what I’d prefer.
To the bar we went, for some food I thought
But liquid nourishment was all that I got.
As we sipped and talked things got frisky
I knew we’d better leave or it would get risky.
My hands were under her skirt, sneaking up just a bit
If I went much further, the guys all watching, she’d have a fit
We knew where this was going; we had to get somewhere
Our lust was too obvious; they were beginning to stare.
The little park in Churchville was all I could think about
But would it be private e enough? I had more than one doubt.
Like silly teenagers we were dying to get at each other
It might have been a ten minute drive, but what a bother!
“Take it slow”, I said to myself, or afraid she’ll be
But I sensed she was as anxious as me
We went down by the river and the towels were laid
Which is exactly what I was thinking, I’m afraid
She said “off with my hat and throw away the gum”
“No problem”, said I “Look out here I come!”
What happened next you’ll have to ask her
Because staying private I know she’d prefer.
Let’s leave it that the “river” is special ‘til the day we die,
But in a million years you’ll not find out why.
Sometimes it seems like all we ever do is text
Both of us wondering what will come next
Neither one of us knows what it will take
To be together so I life we can make.
But hope springs eternal they say
So I pray that someday we will find a way.
To the love of my life, my BabyGirl.
Poem - Denise - Birthday
Promise
Just like the dawn of a new day
Hope blossoms in a special way
Thoughts of what might be fill my heart
She’s special, that I knew from the start
Like so many people we met on the net
We kidded; we flirted; had fun and yet
She was with another so part of her life
Was being a mother and also a wife.
No danger here I thought
For love was what I sought
No she could never be more than a friend
My lonely heart, she would not mend
But there might be more here, we both knew
And as time went by it became more true
We joked and we laughed to the point of tears
The more we chatted, the less our fears
That fateful day when I first heard her voice
To meet her I knew I had no choice
Right from the start we acted like more
Her obvious charms I began to adore
No subject was off limits to her
Well, except one for me for sure
Not impossible but a struggle for me
Raw emotion springs from the big “C”
I’ll deal with it because it’s a part of her
That it didn’t exist we’d much prefer
But sometimes reality can really suck
Often a matter of pure dumb luck
She forgave me and said to move on
Her strength and conviction, it shone
She’s learned to treasure every single day
Not live for tomorrow but enjoy today
To some it sounds like I’m being a jerk
We’re so far apart how can it possibly work?
Often said, where there’s a will, there’s a way
We may well test that theory some future day
For now there’s only the unknown
But so far she has clearly shown
There is the promise of tomorrows
To ease the pain of our past sorrows
There may well be blips, stumbles and falters
But she’s worth the effort, this Denise Walters.
These thoughts I share on your special day
May your birthday be special in every way.
Then and Now
THEN AND NOW
No matter the weather, every morning was bright
Because each day her vision was my very first sight.
Now every morning is cloudy and grey
Regrets are all I have to face the new day.
My sleep was blissful with her in my arms
Lying naked beside me with all of her charms.
Alone now I toss and turn, ever so lonely
This bed is a tomb now that it’s empty.
Our arms wrapped round just felt so right
To kiss and make love and hold on so tight.
Now my pillow is all that’s left to hold
No warmth from her body, only the cold.
Read the papers and have our orange juice
No tension, no stress, always so loose.
Now pain is the first thought, wanting to cry
Knowing she’s gone, but not knowing why.
Planning our day with each other in mind
No more kindred spirits would you ever find.
Now no reason is there to enjoy this day
Just getting through it is the only way.
So many things to share with my “sweet girl”.
My joy knew no bounds, my heart in a whirl.
Now no one to share even my grief
The wonder of together was all too brief.
Her beauty to admire and to love her smile
Her laughter and her love were so worthwhile.
Now only visions of what was hoped to be
A shared love that I will never again see.
We danced like two people becoming as one
Shared laughter and good times and had such fun.
Now memories are all I try to forget
They bring only sadness, sorrow, regret.
She taught me to roller-blade with the best
Pushing me hard with never enough rest.
How can I blade without thinking of her?
Regretting I’m not with the one I prefer.
Making love on the beach across the lake
So tender and sweet for each other’s sake.
Now the boat’s like the love – gone to another
From this enormous pain how will I recover?
She was the best thing that ever happened to me
My heart had grown cold and she set it free.
Now my heart aches as I thought it could not
Painful sorrow and hurt I thought I’d forgot.
When I was with her I felt such pride
To know that she was there by my side.
To have thought it would go on forever
That out of my life she’d be – no never!
My heart skipped a beat at the thought of her
So filled with hope, joy, love and wonder.
Now there’s nothing left but the empty ache
Of a love lost and the very soul she did take.
So many memories of wonderful days
Spent together in such special ways.
Now the only memories are oh so bad
Anger and frustration just make me sad.
Her building a fire and me cooking dinner
Giving her comfort made me a winner
To now know that these things were not enough
To make her love me in return is so tough.
Those great, fun days skiing at Silver Star
She challenged me to go ever so far
Now I wonder if I ever again ski
What’s the point when there’s only me.
How many lunches and dinners have we shared?
Always great conversations ‘bout things we cared.
Now no desire to eat out anymore
Hardly a reason to go out the door.
So many conversations over the phone
Honest opinions shared with each one.
Now I just wait for the phone to ring
To hear her sweet voice is the thing.
Giving my love without question
To be hurt? Not even a suggestion.
But giving my heart to the love of my life
Has brought so much pain, hurt and strife.
With her in my thoughts I knew my plan
Her warmth and affection made me a man.
She’s gone and took away my meaning
Lost without her is the way I’m leaning.
Every love song spoke of the way I feel
True love? Yes these feelings were real.
Now the hurting songs are much more true
They speak of sorrow, pain and being blue.
The future was bright, as together we’d be
No more lonely and sad, not with “you and me”
Now gone is my soul along with my heart
Dark clouds of despair now we’re apart.
Memories you created every single day
Of the things you did in your own special way
Now those memories will fade as time goes by
The most hurtful part is I’ll never know why.
Verushka
Her name is Verushka; she’s quite the girl
The first day I met set my heart in a whirl
With a smile that instantly lights up any place
Gorgeous eyes, pouty lips, her delicate face
Long silky black hair down to her waist
Lips, luscious and full, you yearn to taste
A cute little body, perfect in every way
To be with her you can only pray
She is so much more than eye candy though
There are so many things you really must know
Her beauty is matched by so much more
She’s the kind of girl that makes your heart soar
A sparkling personality, wit and charm
The kind of girl you want on your arm
She’s wise beyond her years and so mature
She stirs a hunger in you you cannot endure
Her beauty is equaled only by her intelligence
Beyond simply smart she has that good sense
She can handle herself with grace and poise
Whether dressed up or just “one of the boys”
She instantly connects with new people so well
You know in a second and can easily tell
She’s one of those rare people, when they ask “how’s your day?”
Really means it and actually cares what you say
To her I want to be someone special, much more than a friend
But if I don’t accept the way it is for her, our friendship might end
She’s so sweet as to be sorry there’s not more she can offer to me
I’m left to only dream of what a great love she could be
I lay down at night, dreams of her in my arms
Nights filled with passion, enjoying her charms
At first light of day she’s the first thing on my mind
I know a better woman I never will find
We laugh; we talk, we share our lives in every way
I never want to live without her, not one single day
Someday she will meet a man, about him she’ll learn
He’s a man whose worthy of her she can love in return
Jealous of him will I be?
Them together will be hard to see
He will have every minute with her
Time that I would much prefer
No one like her will I meet again, I fear
I’m left only empty, to shed a tear
But it’s not to be, she’s made that clear
I will still love her and hold her so dear
Oh, what might have been, if not for her age
But it’s time to give up, and turn the page
Accept how things are and not make it worse
That we will never have more is truly a curse
God has brought this wonderful Angel into my life
Every second of every day I long to make her my wife
To her that’s no secret, she knows how I feel
If nothing else she knows that’s it’s real
Where my life takes me from here I don’t know
But I hope that these few lines will truly show
How much she means to me and how much I care
And how special it is that our lives we do share
You might think me crazy for feeling this way
But you can’t choose who you love, you have no say
It all happens naturally with someone who’s so right
Your brain knows it’s wrong, but your heart you can’t fight
To connect with someone in all those special ways
A person who brings you so many incredible days
Is just someone for whom you will always care
Even though to do more you don’t dare
You are left with your dreams of how it might be
You know in your heart how it is and can see
That only your dreams will you ever have now
You still yearn for much more but can’t see how
That doesn’t make it wrong to show that you care
And you can still find a way for your lives to share
Your dreams may never come true
But never be afraid to say “I love you”.
Don't Go There
Words
When to explain I try to endeavour
Your only response - “whatever”.
When I suggest we get “touchy-feely”
Your only response - “oh, really?”
When over the line I venture to dare
Your only response – “don’t go there”.
Even when I stumble with only a “duh”.
Your only response – “Uh-huh”.
But when I’m not acting the fool
Your welcome response – “cool”.
And the most common answer wherever I go
Is that all too simple, but meaningful “no.”